A year and a half later…

I can’t believe its been that long. I was going through my junk mail to look for something when I found an email from word press about a comment someone had made. It has been about 2 years since I last blogged. And I am extremely sorry for not updating this blog with what was going.

First of all, let me say that I have taken step 1 on July, 9, as planned and passed with a decent score. All I have to say is hard work pays off.

Second, so many unfortunate and not-so-unfortunate things happened in that time window and I have not been able to take CK yet. I don’t even know where to begin but suffice to say its been a rocky ride. I’m just glad I’m fine able to sit down and study for CK and the Canadian exam (MCCEE)

I’ll be updating this blog as often as I can.

Thanks for reading.

Day 17: Endocrine

I know I know its been a while. I was only going to take a week off but “stuff happens” and I ended up taking a little more than a week off.  I just felt like I had too much on my plate and couldn’t concentrate. It messed up my schedule big time. But I hope it will pay off mentally.

I have to get through endo pathology today and Kaplan is expiring in a few days…ugh!

Gettting closer to the date and my stomach is murdering me. For the past few days, I’ve been having bouts of diarrhea and constipation. It’s making me very worried about the test. What if I have to use the bathroom 5+X during the test? lol

Okay well I’m going to read FA for 2 hours—> Kaplan Qs—–> memorize material I went over in two hours until lunch. And then Uworld till about 4’ish—>Break—>Memorize new material till 8pm—–> Review Cardio till 10pm. Good night.

Update: Just finished all of Kaplan’s pathophys/path/pharm Q’s for Endo. Somehow I feel like I made some pretty dumb mistakes. I haven’t memorized anything yet, I’m 1 hour behind and already feeling tireeeed. The weather is soo gorg outside today. It’s -20C, I might go for a walk today!

 

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Where I’ve been…

Well well well, I owe this blog an apology. I have been MIA for about a week now. I know I have updated this blog with like two line entries about my “progress” but really and truly studying was just not happening. I guess I felt very discouraged after I found out that I could not take my test in June. I had initially planned to write it on June/20th, which meant that my results were gonna come out  around mid July. This would have given me two stress-free weeks before I start my clerkship. Now that I’m writing it on July/9th, not only am I not going to have any “stress-free” before clinicals but I’m also not going to be able to do my two weeks “observership” in Canada. And that sucks big time! Now I could have flown out to the US to write it but I just CANNOT sleep if I’m not in my bed. It sounds silly to some but I wouldn’t want to risk not getting enough sleep as I am practically non-functional without sleep. Plus traveling itself is very stressful and the last thing I need before the test is to have to worry about booking a flight and a hotel room and making sure that it doesn’t get canceled etc… So I decided to go ahead and book my test for July, 9th.

ImageIt really sucks when you find out that you don’t really have much to look forward to anymore. I don’t really feel motivated to study anymore 😥 But I really hope now that I have the test booked I can just give it my all for the next two months and get it out of the way. Come to think of it, two extra weeks means more time with my FA and Uworld which is always a good thing. I’m just worried that I’m going to burn out and run out of gas before July/9th. I hope that doesn’t that. Actually, that is the reason why I took a few days off. I just wish I had done something that involved being out and about. Instead I just spent the past few days texting and skyping with the Mr. who lives all the way in the mid-Atlantic. It was nice.

And that’s pretty much where I’ve been. I hope to get back to my regular routine on Monday.

Till next time,

Day 14+15: Re-evaluating plans

Yes that’s exactly what happened during those two days. I’ve pretty much just been playing out different “USMLE scenarios” in my head, changing my schedule as a result of those horrible “scenarios” and repeating step 1 and 2 over and over. I seriously need to go a little faster. I can’t afford to take a whole freaking week to finish one section of FA! Ha! I haven’t even finished Cardio and its been more than a week already.

I feel like I need to switch gears. I might just memorize stuff in the mornings and use the afternoons to go over new material and then the evenings for questions. Memorizing is taking FOREVER! I don’t know how people do it in such a short period of time. I’m so aggravated, anything can tick me off at this point. Its not healthy.

Day 13: Questions

I’ve been feeling down lately. Today was supposed to be a productive day. I was planning to get through 200 questions but I could barely get through 75 and my performance on them wasn’t so great either, I used a qbank called exam-master since my qbanks don’t have anymore cardio anatomy or physio questions left. The plan was to start DIT today too but that didn’t happen. I hate how I can’t help but get involved in stuff thats happening at home. It’s really not good for my mental well-being.

Today I seriously thought about going back to the states to have a peaceful month of studying before the USMLE but I feel like that might actually end up wasting my time. First I have to find an apartment, then I have to find furniture and get situated etc. It’ll take at least two weeks and I don’t have that much time…I just have to suck it up and deal with it.

I’m also very frustrated with ECFMG. ALL of my friends (including the ones I’ve helped with their USMLE applications) have heard back from ECFMG. It’s very worrying and I’m not receiving any satisfactory answers from either my school or ECFMG. Not sure why I have to receive 3 freaking emails, 3 weeks apart, telling me the same exact thing. It’s so frustrating….I mean its not like I’m ready and just sitting there and waiting for that permit so I can book my test today and write it tomorrow, but having a date would hopefully get things going a little faster

I really did not intend for this to be a depressing entry. I guess this blog is becoming more like my ‘wailing wall’. I hope it doesn’t depress anyone who’s reading it but anyone who’s currently going through the USMLE journey realizes how stressful it can be. Okay, I’m going to end this blog with an inspiring quote I found online:

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